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If you were a superhero, what would your superhero name be?

...are...

ARE YOU

~~~SERIOUS??????~~~~


I ONLY THINK ABOUT THIS BASICALLY EVERY DAY!!! LMFAOOOOOO.

~~SUPER SWUNG DASH~~~!!!!!!!~~!!!


...AND DON'T YOU ~~FORGET IT.~~ LMFAOOOOOO.

Oooooon that note,

~~HALLOWEEN COSTUME IDEAS~~!!

~SUPER SWUNG DASH (will require a lot of effort! 8'D)
~HUMAN*SPONGEBOB
~SUPERHERO*WARDEN (...STILL REQUIRES A LOT OF EFFORT)
~WALDO (AS IN, WHERE'S WALDO??)
~TAVROS NITRAM

If I go as Super Swung Dash, I hope a ~~certain friend~~ of mine can go as coffee boy. :'3 *SHIFTY EYES* If I go as human*SpongeBob, I think Sibling might be going as Sandy and Ericc might be going as Squidward~! If I go as superhero*Warden, then, IDEALLY... as Ericc and I have discussed, he is going to go as future*Warden and Sibling, if she can be PERSUADED, will go as regular Warden!! 8B Or possibly the Mistress. If I go as WALDO, I'm hoping Ericc will go as Slender Man and Sibling can go as Carmen Sandiego~! And if I go as Tavros...

...I NEED ELEVEN FRIENDS. D8 LMFAO.

SOOO MUCH MORE TO COME, PROBABLY.

...it's April, and I JUST DON'T CARE.

actually I CARE MORE THAN I CAN LET ON. Already my month has gotten off to the most ~~splendid~~ start EVER. I got my Homestuck shirt on the last day of March, which means I can wear it on the thirteenth. ;D Like a DWEEB!! April Fool's Day is ALWAYS fun, though I spent most of it RPING~! And I finally listened to that Rebecca Black song and it was TERRIBLE. And at the end of the night, my BEE GOT ON SKYPE!!! AND WE TALKED USING OUR MOUTHHOLES. LMFAOOOOO. And spewed ICP lyrics and died laughing and tried to read FandomSecrets and got too DISTRACTED and played QWOP and looked at FANMIXESS and TALKED A LOT!!!!

AND OH DEAR I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THAT GAME ~~DOES~~ TO MY LANGUAGE.

Me: ...*TWITCHING, PLAYING IT FOR THE 249924924TH TIME* 8'D OKAY BUDDY YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
QWOP: ...*FLAILFLAIL* 8D HURRHURR I CAN DO THINGS NO HUMAN BEING CAN
Me: HUMP THE GROUND COME ON EVERYONE IS A WINNER!!! :D
HURDLE THING: ;D WELL HELLO THERE.
Me: D8 OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL IS THAT THING!!
Bee: ...LMFAOOOO YEAH AROUND THE FIFTY METER MARK THERE ARE HURDLES
Me: DDDDDDDDDDD8 OHHHH MY GOD I AM SO SCARED RIGHT NOW
QWOP: 8'D *LEAPING FORWARD*
Me: ....he DOES have silver socks doesn't he i thought the white things were his socks.
Bee: ...LMFAO I THINK THOSE ARE HIS SHOES.
Me: EITHER THAT OR HE'S SOME DERANGED SCIENCE EXPERIMENT
Bee: LMFAOOOOOOOOOO HE'S A CYBORG!!
QWOP: 8'D *LEAPING BACKWARD*
Me: ...LMFAO OH hey WHAT THE HELL?? COME ON you can do this i can do this!!
QWOP: 8'D *FORWARD BACKWARD FORWARD STUCK*
Me: DDDDDDDDDDDDD8 AAAAAAAAHHHHH  *LUCILLE NOISES* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!
Bee: ...LMFAOOOOO
Me: i am going to DIE playing this game. 3:
Bee: ...please, don't.
QWOP: *MAKES IT PAST THE HURDLE*
Me: ...oh my GOD OHRMKKFKKF I DID IT I'M PAST IT!!!!
QWOP: *LEAPLEAPLEAP*
Bee: I believed in you ALL ALONG!! I knew you could do it~!
Me: OH MY GOD NO OH MY GOD
QWOP: *WOBBLEWOBBLE*
Me: WWWWWWWWWW. ...wow, that was the SCARIEST moment of my--
QWOP: ...*CRASHES AND BURNS*
Me: .........OH HOLY FUCKING SHIT OHHHH NO QWOP YOU ASSHOLE
Bee: LMFAOOOOOOOOOO OH NO!! DID HE FALL?
Me: OH QWOP YOU FUCKING COCKSUCKING GODDAMNFUCKING PIECE OF ~~SHIT~~!!!
Bee: LMFAOOO OH NO
Me: NOOOOOOOO NO NO. NO. *BRAIN BREAKS*
Bee: LMFAO I AM SO. SORRY.
Me: I AM GOING. TO CRY.
Bee: LMFAO THAT IS SO TERRIBLE!!

rinse lather and repeat
because I DON'T KNOW WHEN TO GIVE UP

.....yyyep I HAVE NEVER CURSED SO MUCH IN ONE SITTING UJGRSSFKSFK it's all fun and games at FIRST, man, and then all of the sudden it's like YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. HAS BEEN ECLIPSED. BY THIS STUPID GAME. ABOUT THIS RUNNER WHO COULDN'T EVEN WIN THE ~~SPECIAL OLYMPICS.~~ and you're SO INTO IT andhnjcj;;; ugh ughuhj!!!!

AND OH YES THERE WAS THIS:

Me: 8D I feel like I should be playing Queen right now!!
Bee: LMFAO YES. That's the perfect music, after all.
QWOP: *FALLS ON HEAD* D8 UNH.
Me: ....he fell.

~~~A FEW MINUTES LATER~~

Me: ...OKAY HERE WE GO LET'S TRY THIS.
Bee: LMFAO YOU CAN DO IT.
Me: ....WEEEEE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, MY FRIIIIIIIIIIIIIENDS~~~
QWOP: 8D *LEAP LEAP LEAP*
Me: ....AND WEEEEEEE'LL KEEP ON FIGHTIIIIIIING...
QWOP: *FALLS ON HEAD AGAIN* D8 UNH.
Me: ...'TIL THE EEEEEND OH GODFUCKING SHIT!!!!!! GODDAMNIT!!!!!!!!
Bee: LMFAOOOOO HE... HE DIDN'T FALL AGAIN, DID HE?
Me: YES HE DID AND I WAS AT THE SAME POINT AS LAST TIME!!!
Bee: LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Me: QUEEN IS CURSING QWOP
Bee: THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE!!! HOW IS THAT... ...POSSIBLE?

Freddie Mercury is getting off on my pain. or on being withholding, idk. ...it was REEEALLY FUN THOUGH.

AND THEN WE HARASSED PEOPLE ON OMEGLE!! It was weird, because the FIRST PERSON I ran into asked if I was on Skype. I TOLD THEM NO and that Skype was for SQUARES, of course!! :D Someone... asked for my bee's dA. LMFAO FOR LIKE NO REASON. AND THEN I RAN INTO THIS GUY WHO THOUGHT HE WAS SOOOO INTELLECTUAL/SHAKESPEARE. AHAHAHA. it was so fun. WE LOOKED AT COSPLAY PICTURES, TOO!!!!

...eventually, though, the fact that I had been up for OVER TWENTY-FOUR HOURS (CLOSER TO THIRTY-SOMETHING) was really starting to catch up to me. LMFAO LENABEE WAS REALLY IMPRESSED, APPARENTLY, because... she was tired and sloooowly starting to feel drained and get quieter, but I was just... LMFAO BEING HYPERACTIVE!! What she didn't REALIZE was that that was stage one of... god knows what. I kind of learned that if I'm not paranoid, and my life isn't kaleidoscopes, I.... TURN INTO GIR. LMFAO. WELL NO BUT THAT'S ONE WAY OF PUTTING IT. After awhile I just started laughing. at EVERYTHING. I WAS SO OUT OF IT. LMFAOOOOOO.

Bee: ...I THINK I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GO.
Silence: ...*IS A THING THAT HAPPENS*
Me: ....LMFWKWKFFFKKSFSFKF!!!!! *DIES*
Bee: ...LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Me: ....there is a thing... ...on my computer screen...
Bee: ....what? LMFAO.
Me: ....i right clicked and it came up and it has ALL the options... *LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY*
Bee: LMFAO OH.
Me: ...I just keep... scrolling up and down...  OOOOVER AND OOOOOVER. *SOBBING WITH LAUGHTER*
Bee: ...see, you're PRODUCTIVE when you're sleep-deprived. I'm just playing with this wrapper thing.

AND WE TALKED IN SMILIES FOR AWHILE!!!!

Me: ...I KEEP MAKING THIS ONE SMILEY
Bee: LMFAO IT'S SO TWITCHY!!!!
Me: ...BECAUSE I'M RESTING MY HEAD ON THE KEYBOARD...
Bee: ...yeah, and you're not tired AT ALL.

Bee: You're SO TIRED. I can hear it. In your PSYCHE.
Me: NO. ...LMFAOOOOO NOW I CAN'T... OPEN MY ONE EYE...
Bee: ...you're not tired at all. Nope.
Me: HEY. ~~HEY.~~ I ~~KNOW~~ WHEN I'M TIRED, OKAY.
Bee: ...okay, well maybe we should both go to bed.
Me: ...don't tell me, you don't even KNOW...!!
Bee: ...okay, well maybe ~~I~~ should go to bed!!!
Me: ...okay, fine. I'll just play more QWOP or whatever.
Bee: LMFAO.

BUT BEFORE SHE LEFT, SHE SENT ME PICTURES!!! AND SCREENCAPS. AND A PICTURE OF HITLER. THAT ALSO INVOLVED JELLYFISH JELLY. AND I SENT HER... A PICTURE OF A JELLYFISH. THAT WAS ON MY COMPUTER FOR SOME REASON!!!! and then... we had to part ways. 3: even though we kept stalling one another. she said I LOVE YOU and I would have said it back with more ENTHUSIASM but I was really busy not being tired at all, so I said it kind of quietly.

...I probably stayed up for another thirty minutes. after that I don't remember much.

LMFJFKFSFSK

I'M SURPRISED I REMEMBER THAT MUCH ACTUALLY!!!!

SO YES THAT WAS FUN!!! :D I hope we do that MORE OFTEN.

AND THEN TODAY!!!!! .... UHHH, YESTERDAY!!! 8'D SUPERJAIL SEASON ~~TWO~~ HAPPENED

I LAUGHED SO PSYCHOTICALLY THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THING
that THE MOTHER KEPT ASKING IF I WAS OKAY. LMFAOOOOOO.

i also had a LOT OF DARK CHOCOLATE CADBURY EGGS!! and MOUNTAIN DEW!! SO IT WAS ~~PERFECT.~~ ;DD I feel so SMUG TOO everyone was like OMGZ THE FANDOM IS DEAD D8 and I wa like ... WAS LIKE NO IT ~~ISN'T.~~ SCREW YOU. and i kept writing fanfiction. and NOW LOOK!!!!! i have this to look forward to EVERY SUNDAY. *BEAMS* SUPERJAIL SUNDAY

we like sportz and we don't CARE WHO KNOWS!!!
football football football
TENNIS HOCKEY
~~GOLF~~

and I met SOMEONE NEW so that was fun.

PORTAL 2 IS COMING OUT, TOO!!!! <333333 I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON THAT GLaDOS lady or anything, GO AWAY. omfg.

AND TOBACCO IS COMING TO SLC ON THE TWENTY-FIFTH!! 8'D ...not that i can, you know, GO. LMFAO. BUT I'LL HAVE MY OWN LITTLE CONCERT. ;D so THERE. April is GREAT!! :D 2011 is GREAT. THERE IS A DANDELION GUM DELUXE REISSUE coming out WITH FOURTEEN BONUS SONGS!!! I do hope it is scratch 'n' sniff. <3 Also, I am FINALLY starting to get this MATH THING~!! And I'm getting my hair cut as short as I fucking WANT it to be, soon, and Sibling + Friends are taking me~! My family will hate it, but it will be fun.

sooooo. SO THERE.

YEAH I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW GREAT MY LIFE IS. :3 SOOOOO.

I'm going to get GOING NOW!!! TA-TA~!

EDIT~!!: LMFAOOOO OH MY GOD FORGOT TO TYPE IN MY LOCATION.

WOOOOPS~!!! i should go to bed
 
 
 
 
 
 
Zri: I did some RPing on ink_manor and then got distracted by vidya gaems
Zri: ....when I was supposed to be writing
 Zri: wtg zri
Me: LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LMFAOOOOOO I KNOW HOW THAT IS
Me: how inconvenient it IS to be a writer with a short attention span :D
Zri: 3:
Zri: we are so alone
Me: LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
Me: *CRIES INTO YOUR SHIRT*
Zri: it's okay 3:
Zri: It's okay, I'm right here
Zri: I'm right - OOO SOMETHING SHINY
Me: AHSJASSVAGHJSVHJS OH MY GAWD A BUTTERFLY
Zri: OOOOH A PIECE OF CANDY
Zri: HOLY CRAP A DOLPHIN VID ON YOUTUBE
Zri: OH PRETTY COLORS ON PHOTOSHOP
Me: OH MY GOOOOOODDD A KITTEN
Me: OH MY GOSH CRAYONS
Me: MARKERS
Me: OHNHJSJSSFFKSSFKF HOLY SHIT THERE ARE SHAPES IN MY CEILING
Me: THAT ONE LOOKS LIKE HITLER
Zri: LMFASDFOAO
 Zri: I think you very well have me out-ADD'd
Me: HSXSJASJJASSKSK OH MY GOD THAT ONE LOOKS LIKE TED BUNDY oh shit my amadeus poster
Me: excuse me what were you saying
Me: I WASN'T LISTENING
Zri: LMFAO EXACTLY

YEP!!!! THIS ALSO EXPLAINS WHY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN AWHILE
life will be ~~INTERESTING~~ soon, I am sure :D!!
...eventually. uh, yep.

THAT'S ALL YOU GET FOR NOW i'll make a better post LATER
 
 
 
 
 
 
If you were going to make a signature drink that was named after you, what would you put in it?








I REALLY CAN'T SLEEP.

...that was a statement, but let's pretend it's a drink. :'D

^ THE FULL NAME OF THE DRINK

It would have RAINBOWS, SUNSHINE, MUSIC, MOUNTAIN DEW, POWERTHIRST, POP ROCKS, DARK CHOCOLATE SYRUP, PINEAPPLE FLAVOR, MINT FLAVOR, CINNAMON, WHIPPED CREAM, CHOCOLATE CHIPS, MARSHMALLOWS (THE KIND COVERED WITH COCONUT OR POSSIBLY TOASTED OTHERWISE ~~~GET OUT~~), ICE CREAM OF ANY FLAVOR OF YOUR CHOICE, ROSE GELATO, BLUEBERRIES, PEPPERS, PIXY STICK DUST (PRACTICALLY THE SAME THING AS SUGAR), BUBBLEGUM FLAVOR OR POSSIBLY REAL GUMBALLS, MORE CAFFEINE AND CARBONATION THAN YOU CAN SHAKE A STICK AT, HAPPINESS, COKE ~~SYRUP~~ (JUST THE SYRUP, MAN), MANGO VENOM, COLORS, AND A LOOOOOOOOT OF COFFEE. Also, there would be lemon wedges and salt AND sugar on the rim, as well as a little rainbow umbrella sticking out of it~!!

We can top it all off with a cherry~!

IT WILL TASTE DELICIOUS.

MMMMMMMMMMmMMMMM.

now I am really going to try to go to bed, that is all~!!!
 
 
 
 
 
 
My main thing is that I ~~NEVER FEEL LIKE UPDATING THIS THING.~~ 3<

i mean, ever. like, if my life depended on updating this thing i probably would,
but i'd get des--distracted HAHAAH a lot and generally fail at it. ;D uhhh anyway

I EVEN HAD A ~~PAID ACCOUNT TRIAL~~ FOR TWO WEEKS.
AND I NEVER EVEN UPDATED. AND I KNEW I WOULDN'T. SO I...

i don't even know.

A thing I should be? :3 is in bed. I have to skip my study session with Kay tomorrow, because of my ~~TERRIBLE HORRIBLE NO GOOD VERY BAD PINK EYE~~ but... LMFAO. ;D whatever. uhjrlsa;;!! Let's pretend I just have one pretty (and probably unlucky) lady waiting for me or somesuch. I think I pretend this more than I would like to, LMFAO. ;D was that a reference to masturbation? who the fuck knows~! lawl puns. i am osososooso itchy.

....which sounds ~~GREAT~~ in that context!!

THE TRUTH IS I BARELY KNOW WHAT I AM... DOING. LMFAOOOOOO. I mean I shouldn't even be WRITING THIS!! oh oh oh

~~TO WHOMEVER IT MAY CONCERN:~~

My ewyes, whatever THOSE are, are green. :3 This means you can't pinch me today.
My word is LAW. LMFAO. SO IF ANYONE TRIES TO PINCH ME,
I WILL PINCH THEM ALL THE WAY TO TIMBUKTU.
THAT IS SIMPLY ALL IH AVE OT SAY ON THE MATTER,
AND I WILL SAIY IT VERY BLALLLDDLYL BECAUSE
i can't type worth a sheesh

also Dexter is a great show. :'3
also writing is a fun thing. :'3
also

i keeeeep having gender identity-related dreams~! mm. 8D The ones I dislike are the ones where I am forced into some girly and embarrassing piece of clothing because ~~YOU ARE A GIRL ACT LIKE ONE OR WE WILL MAKE YOU FEEL TERRIBLE.~~ Also, the ones where I am called out for NOT BEING MAN ENOUGH. ;DD Recently, though, I had one with a positive twist~!! I slipped up, in the dream, and pretty much referred to myself constantly as a guy or using male pronouns, and referring to myself as Sibling's brother. And I said, "Oops~! Sorry, I just constantly think of myself as--" and she said, "I KNOW. 8D I think of you that way too, don't worry."

I WAS CONVINCED IT HAD REALLY HAPPENED, although
I was mildly sad when I realized it--what is this fucking song
that kEEPS GETTING STUCK IN MY HEAD. LMFAOOOOOO.

and WHY!!!!!!!

whatever

....not whatever i am finding this thing

later when i can actually think of what it is
how aggravating is this, you ask? pretty aggravating~!!!

HA I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

only to realize it is not what i want to listen to at all

......

whatever my life right now is
~~REALLY UNINTERESTING~~

I WILL BE BACK WITH SOME DAMN SURVEYS IN 2040, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
 
 
 
 
 
 
FIRSTLY: IT IS TOO HOT IN THIS ROOM. EVEN THOUGH THE WEAHTER ... WEATHER OUTSIDE IS ~~FRIGHTFUL.~~ SEND HELP.

Ssssecondly, uh. ;D I just wanted to get that negative entry off of the top of my journal~!!

things:

~Violin lessons going splendidly~! Fingers hurt with joy. Her name is Psychedelia, but you can call her Delia. :D
~Those issues I was talking about before? mostly solved. I am a silly whatchamacallit indeed sometimes~! 8D
~On that note, I HAVE THE BEST BEE IN THE WORLD. <3 YOU KNOW WHAT SHE IS? THE BEST.
~On that OTHER note, HAPPY BELATED ANATOMICALLY INCORRECT ~~HEARTS~~ DAY1!!! too tired for rainbow font GASP~!!
~MY LIFE IS ACTUALLY FULL OF MORE ADVENTURE THAN I CAN ADEQUATELY EXPLAIN. 8B EVER.
~Watching laser lights while listening to psychedelic music is a splendid idea~!!  Will listen to Tobacco with strobe light on, soon~! Also planning on making an ~~ENTIRE LASER LIGHT PLAYLIST, OOOOOOOO.~~
~Happy Wheels is a HILAAAAAARIOUS GAME, LMFAO.
~Ericc and I have really random adventures that usually end up with us mixing chocolate syrup with something!! 8D The other day, we made berry banana lemon juice chocolate smoothies on a whim. We also recorded ourselves yelling "YOUR MOOOOOOOOOOM!!" and reversed it and set it to a low pitch. WE SOUNDED LIKE COWS.
~moo, honey.
~HAHAHJKSLSLSL i just cracked myself up
~Yesterday, I had junk. :D I also had a peanut butter-jelly-chocolate syrup-Lucky Charms-Frosted Flakes SANDWICH. Ericc had one, too. IN A TORTILLA/WRAP THING. MUST TRY THIS, INDEED.
~"Your sister would have to be the Maid of Honor!" "NO WAY. ALEX WOULD BE THE BEST MAN." "...YES."
~"Stateless" is a better Lene Lovich album than "Flex." ;3 I suspected it, and it's true.
~Despite my intense exhaustion, I WANT AN ENERGY DRINK AND/OR SODA EVERYONE IS SURPRISED
~"AMBULANCE 8D SAFARI. AMBULANCE 8D 8D 8D SAFARI. AMBULANCE SAFARI jeez try to keep up!!"
~I HATE GODDAMN KINDLES.
~Probably taking the G.E.D. test for the first itme time soon, hooray~!! wish me luck.
~ Cinnamon coffee is the best thing~~
~"Being John Malkovich" is so great. I SPENT THE WHOLE MOVIE GOING, "...THE HELL??" and then when everything was all over, it all just HIT ME AT ONCE like a falling piano or something. PEOPLE SHOULD SEE IT BECAUSE IT MAKES NO "SENSE" IN MY KIND OF WAY. yyyep.
~ALLERGIES + MUSCLE PROBLEMS GALORE HOORAY!! <3
~UNRELATED, BUT: DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT on Friday oh why.
~one day, I will write poetry again.

In conclusion, I LOVE 2011. I KNEW IT WOULD BE GROOVY.

i am abnooooooooooormally tired~! bedtime is imminent.

JUST WANTED TO FILL YOU ALL IN. *COLLAPSES*
 
 
 
 
 
 
HEY. HEY, YOU, SUBCONSCIOUS?

I know I have some issues I need to work through, okay? please don't feed them anymore~!!

...

ffffuck.

I'LL BE OVER THIS IN AN HOUR
you can time me. *SMILES*
 
 
 
 
 
 
Everything's coming up ~~RABBITS~~... and sleep-deprivation. All the time.

Everyone is going to laugh at me when I tell them this, but I used to have a Thing about rabbits. I have had NIGHTMARE AFTER NIGHTMARE involving the things, sometimes not even directly. I DON'T KNOW IF THERE'S SYMBOLISM IN THAT!! And this was BEFORE I saw "Rabbits" by David Lynch, too. 3: I don't resent them for it, anymore, but... my god.

UH, ANYWAY, EVERYONE IS ANSWERING THIS STUPID QUESTION.
AND LISTENING TO ANIMAL COLLECTIVE WHILE THEY DO IT.

SOOOOO I'LL JUST SAY...


I'M A ~~RAM/GOAT/SHEEP~~!! IN THE CHINESE ZODIAC.
NO ONE CAN SETTLE ON A NAME FOR ME. ;D uh
a METAL RAM/GOAT/SHEEP specifically.

METAL SHEEP - 1871, 1931, 1991~!
The Metal Sheep will have great faith in himself and know the value of his talents. He can camouflage his high degree of sensitivity by putting up a brave front, although actually he has a very vulnerable ego and is easily offended by offhand remarks.

Metal reinforces his flowing artistic tastes and he will be inspired to search continuously for beauty in all forms. His home could be a master piece of interior decoration, as he is most concerned about harmony and balance in his daily life. Leaving a familiar environment can be traumatic for him; he will find it hard to adjust to change.

This type of Sheep will also aspire to security in both his domestic and financial life. His services won't come cheap, although he is not averse to handing out free meal tickets now and then.

His social activities will be limited to those people he cherishes or those who could be of use to his career. The uninitiated will have to wait for him to warm up to their advances.

Beneath his calm and helpful exterior, the Metal Sheep has unstable emotions that he finds hard to control. As a result, he can be possessive, jealous and overprotective of his loved ones. He should allow people about him more freedom. Expecting everyone to be at his beck and call will only cause resentment, as well as resistance to the invaluable contributions he could make.

...

BUT!! I WAS ~~SUPPOSED~~ TO BE A WATER MONKEY.

So do with that what you will, I suppose~! I don't think it represents my animal spirit ~~at all,~~ mainly because... ;D my animal spirit is usually a dolphin, and ~~sometimes~~ an otter!! And the dolphin has been my--oh my god, paranoia--my... animal spirit since I was a little kid, so there you have it. ;D ;D ;D I will even use a dolphin icon just to HAMMER THAT POINT HOME. LMFAO.

BUT THERE NOW I'VE DONE IT. LIKE THE SHEEP I AM.

hum.

YOU ARE ~~ME~~ NOW. <3Collapse )

yes well i'm going now.
this entry was very pointless.

I'M TIRED AND I'M NAUSEOUS
AND I HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY

SO ~~GOODBYE~~!!

*SLAMS DOOR*
 
 
 
 
 
 
(WARNING~!!: THIS ENTRY IS RAMBLY AND JOYFUL AS HELL. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. <3)

I cannot stop saying that, soooooo

OMFG~!!

OMFG
OMFG PURPLE FONT
OMFG I AM SO LAZY
OH MY CLUCKING GOD
...OMCG? WHAT

I... a vilio i

i iiiiiiiiii i i ihihhihihihiihhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii WORLD. I LOVE YOU. LMFAO.
EXCEPT FOR THE PEOPLE I DON'T LOVE, ANYWAY.
THEY CAN JUST GO STRAIGHT TO HELL.
MY GOD I AM LIKE HIGH OFF OF MY OWN AMAZEMENT~!! *SKIPS*

Okay, our tale begins a long long time ago, in a galaxy far away. 8D I have just turned thirteen, and... I want to play the violin. My growing love for Vivaldi (and, eventually, classical music in general) only intensifies this. For years, I sit and  pester the parents until they want to go BATSHIT. They keep feeding me shit about how they don't think I can do it they think it will only lead to disappointment and heartbreak etc. etc., and even Moose feeds me some bullshit about how my love for the violin won't last and I'll just wind up wasting money. HAHAHA. Basically, everyone is a TOTAL NEGATON AND A DUMB CLUCK AND A LOSER. Lots of shit is involved, evidently~! There are a few false alarms, and they say they'll "consider" various things, but ultimately nothing gets done.

When I am seventeen, I start taking piano lessons. ;D Which is totally fine and fun, but I spend most of those lessons fixating on the violin. On the STRINGS. The grandmother tells me that she doesn't think I'll be able to play the violin, when... D8 she's been so supportive of the piano. Eventually my piano teacher turns out to be totally inflexible and expensive anyway, so we have to drop the whole thing, and I am content to going back to picking out notes on the piano by ear~.

If the piano didn't work out, I tell myself, maybe there is ~~ANOTHER~~ instrument for me~!!

Of course I know what it is all along. ;3 I have had dreams about playing the violin for six years~!

So I try again. 8D I try to tell the mother and the father that hey, I have wanted to play the violin ALL THIS TIME YOU GUYS. LMFAO THEY NOD ALONG, BUT THEY FEED ME THE SAME STUFF ABOUT HOW I'LL BE TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED AND IT'LL CRUSH MY SPIRIT etc. etc. etc. ...and everything changes when I tell Kay. :'3

Kay not only takes me ~~srsly,~~ she tells me she has a friend who might be able to teach me violin!! 8'D She tells me I'd really get along with him, and he's apparently really fun and he can fiddle and he's kind of left-of-center which, in my case, is good. ;D It takes about two months, but ~~EVENTUALLY~~ I get word that Kay is coming over with this violinist friend of hers, and they're going to see how well I can handle the instrument!! Ooooo.

By the time Thursday arrives, I am a FLURRY OF EXCITEMENT AND JOY~!! 8'D I try to go to bed ~~early,~~ even, just to make sure that the day arrives soon!! ...it fails miserably, of course, but. LMFAO OH MY GOD VIOLIN EJKFDLSSFL!!!! I watch a lot of "SpongeBob SquarePants" (on ~~DVD~~ :3), drink chocolate milk, eat crackers, and generally bounce around like a madman. srslylylylyyl.

I ATTACK ERICC LIKE SO:

ME: 8D ERICC.
ERRIC: *COMING DOWN THE STAIRS EVEN THOUGH HE IS NOT A BANANA OR A PAJAMA OR SOME TWISTED COMBINATION OF THE TWO* ...Yeah?
ME: 8D TODAY IS THE ~~BEST DAY.~~ ....~~~EVER.~~~ 8'D
ERICC: ...LMFAO. WHY.
ME: 8D Pff, ~~why.~~ I'M GOING TO PLAY A VIOLIN TODAY!!
ERICC: OH YEAH!! :3 Too bad we won't be here to see it.
ME: ...3: Yeah. ...BUT THE UNIVERSE IS GOING TO EXPLODE, ~~TRUST~~ ME!! ;D

When I attack SIBLING, she tells me she's really happy for me and everything but why can't she have dance lessons she has been asking our parents for two years oh god. ...I basically tell her to just be persistent, and at LEAST she's taking dance classes at her school!! 8D And I tell her whining won't get her anywhere, which shuts her up. LMSFKLSFSFL

I SPEND ALL DAY GOING CRAZY (LIKE I'M NOT ALREADY ~~THERE~~)
WAITING AND WATCHING CARTOONS

AND FINALLY THE MOMENT ARRIVES!!

It turns out that Kay's friend can't make it and Thursdays aren't really good for him, but KAY!! BRINGS A VIOLIN. HER RELATIVE'S. do you love my tenses, here?? you ought to. *AHEM* She knows quite a few things about it, actually, and she just wants to see if I can even... hold it. If I can move the bow. If ANYTHING CAN BE DONE~! Soooo I get right to it. I put the rosin on the bow. I hold the violin with SURPRISING ease, and even though I'm really shaky and my bow is trembling, I can MOVE IT!! She asks me to do some basic finger movements, just to see if I have the finger strength REQUIRED!!! and it seems like I can DO it.

My sound isn't really... ~~CLEAR~~ yet, and mostly I sound like Variations on a Screech, but I can hear myself hitting a clear note once in awhile and that's good enough!! I have to keep resting my hands, especially the hand that's gripping onto the bow, because they are very tired. LMFAO KAY HAS TO REMIND ME TO REST, BECAUSE OTHERWISE I WILL KEEP DOING IT until my ARMS fall off. She has to keep reminding me to take breaks if I need them and not to overwork myself. I am so CONCENTRATED I am so mentally FOCUSED I am so spacing out every once in awhile but this is SO GOOD!! I AM SO SORE taking breaks talking OKAY I'M READY AGAIN ;D

During my very brief breaks (I only let them last for like ... LMFAO THREE TO FIVE MINUTES I'M SO EAGER TO GET BACK INTO IT!!), we talk about ~~THINGS.~~ She says the violinist is willing to come over for my violin lessons every WEDNESDAY, and I say that's FINE!! because it's not like I have much to do, and she says she's already told him my whole story and he is totally ready and willing to teach me. We talk about my muscle memory, which is what I'm MOST concerned/paranoid about, because my body almost forgets how to hold the violin even though I've been holding it with no problems for like an hour.

SEE, ever since I was a young thing I've had this problem.

If I am CONSISTENTLY doing something, practicing ALL THE DAMN TIME, I can get pretty good at it. 8D Typing is a prime example of this, becaaaaause I wasn't even supposed to be able to TYPE like I do, but I had a really difficult time writing and it took so long and it HURT so they got me a typewriter in first grade. And at first I was really slow, hovering over the keys and pecking and clickity-click! white-out etc. etc. ...but I had this desktop computer at HOME, too, which I started to type my stories on. I was CONSTANTLY working at it, CONSTANTLY practicing. And by the end of probably... third grade, I'd gotten to the point where I was a WHIZ on the typewriter, so they got me an electronic organizer with more of a traditional keyboard. 8'D And I was pretty good at typing on it, to everyone's surprise!! Now I type faster than a lot of people ~~WITHOUT~~ Cerebral Palsy, and it's because I am literally typing EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. LMFAO.

So uh, there. AN EXAMPLE OF TRIUMPH!! But... really, I am one of the only people in existence who has ever forgotten how to ride a bike. I rode my first roller coaster like 249429249 times (to the point where my mother had to tell me I had to take a break because she was getting sick LMFAO), LOVED it, and then... my body forgot what that felt like. So by the time I went back to that amusement park (at least six years later), my body PANICKED on the ride and instead of enjoying myself, I just wound up with muscle spasms. LMFAOOOOO. (And then I rode a roller coaster last YEAR and loved it, so how about that. ;D I knew I would!!) I used to swim ALL THE TIME, for HOURS at a time. ;D ...but then an experience kind of SPOOKED me, so I stayed away from the water for awhile, and by the time I was MENTALLY OKAY TO SWIM AGAIN ...

I HAD LITERALLY FORGOTTEN HOW.
I HAVE HAD TO RE-TEACH MYSELF HOW TO SWIM THREE TIMES.

Apparently it's a CP thing?? ;D So oh well.

The point is, it's really easy for my body to forget things. 8D and it's not a matter of being stupid. 3< My brain can process these things and feed me information I already know. BUT MY BODY... LMFAO DOESN'T CONNECT WITH MY BRAIN, so even if I KNOW I can do something my body won't aaaalways do it.

SO YEAH BACK TO PRESENT TENSE. I'M ~~PARANOID~~ ABOUT THAT, BUT... 8D Kay says she knows I can do this. She says it'll take a lot of practice, but she can see that I'm physically capable of it. Which... ...yeah, kiiiiind of means more to me than I can possibly explain. ;D My father is witnessing all this, btw, and he... he's SEEING PROOF that I can do it, so when Kay asks if we can rent a violin by next Wednesday, he's totally... behind it. WHICH MEANS EVEN MORE. LMFAOOOOO MY FATHER HAS BEEN DISCOURAGING ME FROM THIS FOR FOREVEREST so this is like

...supercalifragilisticEXPIALIDOCIOUS!! 8'D

Let me just make it clear that I don't exactly BLAME my parents for not being one hundred percent behind this, before we continue on. LMFAO I ~~DO~~ UNDERSTAND WHY THEY WOULDN'T WANT ME TO GET TOO DISCOURAGED, and why they WOULDN'T necessarily believe in me. Sometimes, no one believes in me more than... I do. LMFAO. Sometimes I just have to ENCOURAGE MYSELF, because I know I can do it but people see evidence to the ~~contrary.~~ It is awfully difficult even for my parents to get past the wheelchair sometimes, and the problems with my fine motor skills, and they probably don't like to watch me... struggle. I GET THAT. Buuuuut it's been awfully frustrating, because sometimes they won't even let me get out there to PROVE myself.

SO I MAKE IT ~~HAPPEN~~ THIS YEAR, MAN.

SIBLING GETS HOME AND I SHOW HER TOO and she's like "AND EVERYONE SAID YOU COULDN'T DO IT 8D"
and I'm like "I KNOW!!! 8'D"
and Ericc is awed.
and even the CATS are awed they keep sniffing the violin
and the dog keeps trying to sniff the bow
(I WAS TRYING TO ~~FIGHT THE MOB~~!!!!)

AND KAY AND I TALK ABOUT THE G.E.D., OF COURSE, AND THEN ABOUT GETTING IN THE HABIT OF TAKING THE BUS IN THE SPRING, AND THEEEEN LMFAO ...well, see, I read "Roy G. Biv Who?" to her once, and she thought it was DELIGHTFUL and loved the idea of Jeebish Whatsit's and my ~~RAINBOW BOOK~~!! 8'D And she says she was talking to another friend of hers who might be able to set music to it and turn it into a SONG!!!! and i think that's WONDERMOUS and i tell her so and

BASICALLY?

IT'S THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER.

I've been rereading old journal entries of mine from when I was like thirteen and fourteen ALL DAY, just so I can look back and know that... 8'D I wanted this so badly, and now it's finally happening for me. THIS IS ~~~~SUPER~~~~ and i KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. eventually.

I PLAYED A VIOLIN!!!!!!~~~!!!!!~1!!!!!!!!

I KNOW I MAY NOT BE THE BEST AT SHOWING IT OR WHATEVER, BUT I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS.
I MEAN, I LITERALLY DO NOT EVEN KNOW. LMFAO. I keep shaking with JOY just thinking about it jsksk
I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE SUCH AWESOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THIS YEAR AND EVERY YEAR D8
OKAY

THAT'S ALL FOR NOW!!! I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAVE WONDERMOUS DAYS, WHEREVER YOU ARE.

OH P.S., HAPPY BIRTHAMADAY, FATHER!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO OLD.
 
 
 
 
 
 
2011.
2011, SQUARES.
2011, LOSERS.
2011!!!!!!!!!!

GUESS WHAAAAAAAAAAAT~?



IT'S A NEW YEAR'S SURVEYTHING!!Collapse )

SO HERE'S THE THING

i am surprisingly tired

TTFN~!!
 
 
 
 
 
 
I GOT BORED OF THE BOLDING SURVEY AND THE NEW YEAR'S SURVEY BUT

HERE HAVE THIS ONE!!!!

CLICK AT YOUR OWN RISKCollapse )

AND IIIIIII AM GOING NOW.

I need to make this layout look wondermous. ;D ALSO, I need to make some changes to my icon collection.

REMMIND ME TO DO THIS LATER

YEP BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT A REMMIND IS
AND EVERYONE CARES!!!!! ABSOLUTELY.

I WILL MAKE A BETTER ENTRY LATER. LMFAO.